Alone

Wow it's been long. I'm in Sec 3 now. Riverside Secondary. It's amazing how times flies. But I kind of hate life right now. I've lost so many friends, my family has problems and my studies are going downhill. There's really nothing much to look forward to in life anymore. It's just a lonely journey after all, and we all stand alone. Even if we have friends guiding us, walking with us, the journey is still only ours to bear. Those who care simply aid you and support you from the sidelines. But the race itself is up to you. They can't help you to the finish line. You're gonna have to do it alone. Along the way, those friends, or supporters, leave one by one. Maybe for another winning runner in the race, or maybe they just feel like they need to be on the winning side. In school there are popular people. "Friends" leave you for that clique every now and then. This is a lonely journey for me. I stand alone. There is no one else cheering for me at the side. And I am far behind the rest. I'm deserted. I'm alone. I must depend on myself and myself alone.

tE@cHer'S DaY!!!!

It was just FABULOUS today. We celebrated Teacher's Day in my school, then I literally rushed back to my old school, Greenwood Primary. I'd like to make a shout-out to my friends, the ex-Greenwoodians! Anyway, I went to meet my friends at Admiralty MRT station, then we travelled together to our old school. When we sort of 'reunited', everyone was so excited and the atmosphere was so merry! It felt like as if we had won a war or something. It was just so amazing, seeing my friends again. I mean, it's been seven long months since I've seen my really good friend, Nicole. However, I felt quite disheartened and neglected, since my friends seem to know so much more than I do.

Many of them are from the same schools, so I wasn't exactly listened to, and half of the things they laughed about-- I just sat there smiling. I didn't get anything. However, I met my friend from another class, and we had a nice long hug. I felt the memories and joy flooding back, and afterwards she came over to my house.

There, she threw herself onto the couch and we talked about our lives. She isn't having a good time in secondary school, because everyone shuns her. She seemed really upset as she spilled her heart out. I suggested for her to transfer to my school, but she just smiled and said "It's not that simple."

Anyway, I really enjoyed our time together. We played Monopoly until 4.30pm, then I walked her out of my condominium and I waited with her, chatting, while waiting for a taxi to send her home. I returned home with a smile on my face. I think I really love my primary school friends. I mean, they may not be as understanding and 'fun' to be with, but they still keep the memories and friendship flooding back every time. And another thing, my friend just broke his voice! He is so adorable; he's 'vertically challenged' but he's sure got a voice like Hulk! He's still adorable, and he'll forever stay close.

That's all for today. I'll write again soon, hopefully. I love my friends!

Gotta Make Up My Goddamn Mind!!

22. 7. 11 Friday, Friday, Gotta Get Down on Friday!


So it's a Friday today!! WOOTS! I had an extra curriculum activity today... CCA. ( Whenever I think of Friday I think of RB xD) My CCA Art Club's activities today were boring-er than usual!! X( In art club there are like tons of people, and they're all so friendly and I really love them!


Sooo there's this really cute guy in art club. All my friends ( whom I trusted enough to tell them!! ) told me he was hella ugly and dumb. -.-"


Beauty lies within people!! But.. the truth is I wouldn't like him a bit if it weren't for my sister's ex boyfriend. I loved that guy like a brother. And ironically Mr Dumb is a mirror image of him.. I love him more than anything because he reminds me so much of that brother. But he's also friendly, nice, and he doesn't judge people after seconds upon seeing them you know? Sigh. :

Anyway, I don't want this to end. This crush. Infatuation is powerful lemme tell you. I don't know bout you guys, but some girls might be feeling an almighty-head-over-heels feeling about one special guy. My guy is sitting right over there, and smiling a cute smile. Not right now lah. I at home.

Sooo yeah.. I'll update my sad life on Monday if possible. I gotta tell you about a row I had with my good friend.. I don't think we'll ever make up. Oh God I wish I had her back! I would do anything to get back to sharing secrets and talking about crushes and whatever! She really was a great friend.. I miss her. We're from different classes, and I have no idea how many outings I missed during the June holidays when she went out with her classmates. When she came back, let's just say we stopped going home together and she's always with her new good friend. Any advice? I'm not being possessive okay?!

I miss her. :'(

For StaRtErS

I guess I'll mainly be writing about my life..what's happening and all that. This is gonna be like my journal. :) Not announcing names though... haha!